pain

Something to Make a Movie About

I write to myself often about my relationship issues but wanted to share this one. What made me want to share is because of an experience while scheduling my next therapy session. I saw someone in the waiting room who was in 911 mode emotionally but subtle with it. She was containing it all while tears still rain down her face. I didn't know who she was nor what she was going through BUT I so desperately wanted to do what I wished my ex would have done for me. I went near her and simply asked if I could hug her. She embraced it and then we both had tears falling.

my heart is totally inside out (new here)

Hello everyone. I just found this site today and I am literally shaking with anxiety as I sit down to write this out. I don't even want to look at it on paper in some ways and I don't know where to start, either. Okay. So, I have been with a man who I thought was the absolute love of my life for a bit over a year. I am not going to get into details about the beginning of our relationship because it is massively triggering for me right now and I am skating on thin ice as it is on an emotional level. I consider myself to be a strong and fairly self aware person.