for five years we have been on and off. He beat me abused me gave me love gave me everything he was my whole life and he knew it. every friend and family memeber abandoned me becasue they could not me waste away to nothing with him. now i am alone, all alone with three older kids from my first marraige of which i left mt husband now my ex husband for this body bulider waste of a man that i still love. I have been NC for 1 week we broke up early jan allthough he is now with the new girl he was cheating on me with. he has cheated and lied with others throughout our entire relationship. today by total accident i saw him as a possible person i may know on fb. there he is in his profile picture with his new girlfriend in his kitchen both smiling so happily. he said the end was my fault and he loves her becasue she accepts him for all he is no nagging no moaning no distrust. i hurt, i hurt so much i knew he was with her but he even lied about her and said the person he is with now isnt the one i caught him red handed with. but i saw her that night and i saw the picture to day. finding it so hard not to contact and reveal the lies i know but i know he'll just call me the looser whore again that he did before. last week he told me i would always be his baby girl and looks body ect wise she is not a patch on me. he sent an email asking if i wanted him to call me i havent replied to it and im trying so hard not to. but he has totaly forgotten me and erased five years of his life with me like im nothing. will he change now he has someone he really loves. i was never allowed even as a friend on his fb or on his body building blog website. i guess i just want acknowledgement that i exsisted to him. all these sites and people say they come back, but he isnt and he wont. i will never see or hear from him again, he cuts everyone off like this even family and all pasty girlfriends hes 53 so he knows he needs to find 'the one' soon. he told me so. i nursed him when he was in hospital every day all day neglecting my kids to help him get better as soon as he was back on his feet he went straight back to the gym and hooked up with his ex that he was two timing me with the first time round and moved to spain with her, till she left him and he came back to me. this time and this girl is different he has fallen in love and he will never come back. i am nothing and noone and i just want one bloody email or text even a usual nasty one so i know that i DO really exist.....in a real mess and a dark bad place
Hi Can't Smile