Newly discarded

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#1 March 13, 2017 - 5:40pm

Newly discarded

Wow this is painful. Ten years with this woman. After three years she met someone and triangulated us for a year before I finally got away. But I still remained in her family through her three kids who visited me often in another town. Eventually her engagement broke off after three years with the other guy. She came back and worked on me again. After three years of her being on perfect behavior and convincing me she loved me and taking fantastic trips with her and her daughter (who I was as a father to from 5 years old until now, 15 years old), and life being beautiful, I moved back to her town, back into my house 4 blocks away from her. She seemed super excited. After a week went by she informed me she had been casually dating someone. She asked me if i wanted her to stop seeing him. She told me that if I promised that I'd marry her she'd stop seeing him. It was torturous. I couldn't simply say "yes, I'l marry you, stop seeing him". There seemed something devious in her. I felt like she was setting me up for something. She continued to triangulate the two of us until I walked over to her house one day to find him assembling a new bed he bought for her. I had an immediate emotional breakdown right there in the driveway. I erupted my anger into hundreds of texts to her which she ignore. Then i stopped. then she started pleading for me to not leave her. Every day for a month she texted e asking for me to call her, to see her. After a month of that she finally wrote me a letter, very formal sounding, informing me that we are toxic for each other and that she was blocking texts and emails, and that she is ending our ten year long relationship in "love and respect" (her words). That was two months ago. I'm still a complete wreck. Her new boyfriend wrote me twice through Facebook. Once to tell me that should our paths cross it would be a very bad day for me. And then again to tell me how I wasn't qualified to be with her and how much he pitied me. I can't re engage into life. All i can do all; day long is just walk and read. My whole body hurts.