I have a question for you, what is your truth?

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#1 Nov 18 - 5PM
Goldie
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I have a question for you, what is your truth?

I have a question for you, what is your truth?

I am asked this question daily, will the narcissist treat the other woman better than me?

What if he did?

What does that mean?

Even if someone prefers to treat someone better than you what does that say about them?

What does that say about you?

Honestly, my x narc could treat the next woman like a queen, a goddess, and it still has nothing to do with me.

I grew up with a father who ignored me (could not see me) and treated my ordinary sister like a queen, goddess, and so on.

For years I could make no sense of this and it hurt my feelings.

I was convinced that every bf I had, would treat me less than and love someone else more or better. That I was not worthy of being the best. The favorite. Therefore this is exactly what I attracted to me in my relationships. Men who could not see me and could not love me.

What my father did to his daughters was sick. It was disordered and selfish. It was not parenting by any stretch.

Nether daughter was a winner in this mix. Both suffered.

There are no winners with a Psychopathic father.

Truthfully my sister seems the worse for wear. She is BPD. Needy, still lives with her Daddy Does not work or function well. Suffers from severe depression, alcoholism and so on.

Me, the discarded one, was forced to become strong as a small child and I am today.

Strong, independent, self sufficient, etc...

Being the favored, prized one, on the pedestal is no treat when the attention comes from a psychopath.

There is always a hefty price to pay.

I spent years trying to seek this mans approval as well as others, until I woke up to the truth.

The truth is:

He loves neither one of us.

He can't. He never did.

He does not know how to love.

He is disordered.

Once I accepted this truth and stopped looking for it......

I became free; free from the bondage of self doubt because my own father did not, could not, love me.

I stopped looking for love from those who do not love me.

Today, I no longer look for or expect love from those who do not have it to give.

I am free.

I love me.

I wish this type of freedom for you as well.

You can have this and get here if you want this.

It takes work, willingness, and a commitment to you.

The first step it to declare it and own it.

I want to be free.

I want to feel better.

I want myself back.

My own thoughts.

My own life.

I want to love me.

I let go of the struggle, the battle to seek love from those incapable.

Today, I will stop chasing the past, the pain, the joy peace and empowerment from others.

I will look inside for my answers, not from the outside.

I am enough.

I am strong.

I am beautiful.

I am lovable.

I am brave.

I am ok just the way I am.

Together in a Healing,
Goldie

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Will the Narcissist treat the other woman better than you?

A better question, will you treat you better than the narcissist treated you?