I wasn't enough..

All I was was a burden he said.. He didn't have fun with me anymore. He cancelled our vacation and refused to take me because I'm a burden who suffocated him.. He said he needed time away from me and to stop being so needy.. I start my career this week, i was in a financial rut but j always asked if he needed anything from the store I even left Long Island and visited him in Brooklyn to bring him lunch to work.. All I am is a burden. I can't help but feel depressed and have those thoughts keep running through my mind. He said he wanted to look up to me he thought I could be like his mother and plan things but he said there is no use for me except for sex because I don't make money right now and I don't plan.. He's taking a break for a few days.. How can I end this emotional torture.