I'm new on here too!

I have just read The Path Forward and been shocked and stunned to realise my 'lover' is a Narcissist. After 3 years of suffering (there has been very little pleasure apart from the initial few months - sound familiar?) and yet I have stayed in the relationship mainly because of loneliness and because he needed me; he never said he needed me, but he just kept coming back. He played with my emotions, my love, my adoration, my giving, my praising, my presents, my time and my need of him. Two years ago he almost pushed me into prostitution, pledging love for evermore if I did this, saying it would make him actually want me and love me MORE. Fortunately, pride and self-respect, a good upbringing and parental standards, stopped me at the very last minute, and he has more or less punished me ever since, by withdrawing sex for weeks, now months, saying very hurtful things like he only wanted me for sex in the first place - I was his very own 'tart'. But I became his 'Madonna', loving him, really caring about him, nurturing him, wife-like, thinking that this is really what he wanted deep-down. How wrong have I been!! Having been humiliated many times - 'get that dress on, paint your nails, NO TROUSERS PLEASE!!!, porn dvd on, etc., etc.,' only for him to arrive and say 'Oh for God's sake, it's not all about sex you know' and walk out, I am not bothered about the sex at all and don't dance to his tune. I will never allow that to happen again. I have hundreds of vile texts he has sent me over the 3 years, showing totally OTT reactions by him to simple statements, constantly chastising me for having 'hysterical rants' when he said something like 'I do not wish to enter any discourse with you on any subject and am closing this conversation'; 'we will talk again when I am ready'; 'I will leave home WHEN I'M READY and see you WHEN I'M READY and not before'. He has ignored my texts for days asking if he is ok and then showing anger when he finally decides to respond. However, having read The Path Forward over a week ago, it is now my bible and I read paragraphs every night to keep me boosted. I am on to him now and am slowly withdrawing emotionally and in written responses. I can't go 'cold turkey' as I have no-one to talk about this - no-one at all. My friends all abandoned me 2 years ago, having become totally sick of me, not understanding why I couldn't just shut the door on him once and for all. All my friends happen to have grown-up, supportive children and/or parents and family. I don't. The friends I have left all agree (apparently) that I am in a 'mental state' and have 'watched my deterioration' it would seem, from afar. Not one has offered support. I have no confidence, nothing.