He only wanted to kiss my tears, and other lightbulb moments
He only wanted to kiss my tears, and other lightbulb moments
I am having such a revelation day, I am sure I will have days when I struggle but the more I learn today, the more clearly I see things.
Repeated flags that kept scrolling across my brain for the last few months were:
Why is he never happy with us being happy?
Why does he always cause such chaos?
Why is it then he now works hard to make me happy, really work hard, then POW throw in a blinder to make me cry, then hold me and kiss my tears?
Now it makes sense...
He has no feelings, he is fascinated by feelings, and loves to be the one to make things better - only things he created in the first place, not other stuff that I genuinely would have appreciated his kindness on and comfort/support over.
At our last reconciliation I had given up asking for a list of things for him to work on as a deal for us to get back together. I asked only one thing: be kind.
Now I realise that when the only thing I ask of my other half in a relationship is to be kind - how cruel and low and damaged he has become (or revealed). Of course, knowing that this was the one thing I wanted, he proceeded to be extremely unkind. Madness...
Wow
Keep a journal, keep getting
My kids, My girlfriend, My sister, the mother of my kids
Much the same
He is an abuser, Mullers.
It more than just wanting to
It more than just wanting to
I agree - he even said he thought he might be a narcissist