Having a bad Day

This morning after 5 days of no contact he's texting me am I serious . My phone has been off just read the text from 6:50am. Yes I'm serious I didn't even answer! Omg ! To go back to what a nightmare , more abuse! More pain, more cheating and being lied to. Haven't I done enough being emotionally drained! This is the first week I can even manage my check book for the first time in months! I'm starting to look a little better, but can't shake the nervousness . Is that PTSD ? Just want to feel better !