Nearly 1 Yr of NC but triggered
Nearly 1 Yr of NC but triggered
Its almost a year to the day where I dumped his sorry ass and deleted our extensive digital life together as well.
I should feel great, but I'm spiraling backward, doubting my experience and extremely rageful. There are so many women surrounding him in friendship and all I want to do is out him and make him suffer.
I live a life most people envy full of adventure, art and independence. Inside I'm extremely unhappy and unfulfilled. The reality that I was degraded, whored out and abused for years is not an easy one to carry nor walk away from.
We were friends for years, then clandestine lovers for years, then nothing... when he threatened me with (more) physical abuse this time in public I ended it.
He raped me. Physically, emotionally and spiritually.
Doubt is a powerful way
I still doubt
i understand
sick indeed
Trust YOUR experience
anger
Recognise this
one year
we were going to
no forgiveness
What would you tell a friend
thinking...
Letting it go didn't work for
this is how it feels for me too
Right on the money