Three years since final divorce decree

Hi you guys,

Tomorrow will be three years that the ink dried on my divorce from the wife with a personality disorder. Strong narcissistic tendencies with a couple of other irritating issues that now seem too far in the past for me to waste time on a psuedo-diagnosis.

This past three years has been such an evolution for me, that I now see clearly that it was all perfectly timed for my spiritual growth. And believe me, I needed more than some of that! And I think I will always work on accepting my humanity and achieving spiritual balance and illumination.

Some days are delightfully full of exciting new experiences and revelations, and some days are turkeys! Life in this mortal body with earthly concerns and conditions take a lot of my attention and time, and the most serious problems I really have are when I live my life in an unconscious state...that is to say living by my old patterns, beliefs, and thought systems.

The question, "who am I", occupies my mind more and more as I age and grow. As do concepts like "I am only limited by my belief in my limitations". Being in touch with my true energy source, my awakeness and awareness that exists before I think, is a fascination of mine. Just being...like in the morning when I wake, before the reboot happens and I remember who I am, what responsiblilties I have to face, what worries and concerns I have, what needs to be handled, etc etc. I love that momentary experience of just being awake without thought. It is in that state that I experience my true intuitive inspiration, my clarity, that stillness from deep inside which is like a quiet voice that reminds me that I always was, and always will be. It powers me, and keeps this body going. And sometimes I get to experience seeing things so differently and freshly that it humbles me that on my own I was so lost, and felt so alone.

Today I want peace and harmony, and I feel that I am on the right path with the only resistance coming from me, my old ways, my old unexamined thinking and reacting, and from my own crappy habits and ideas that slowly are being brought forward and to the surface, ready for exposure and release.

I want everyone to know that we deserve the best this life has to offer. I alos want to share that all that is required is willingness to look closely and fearlessly at what drives us, and to be granted through asking for enough humility to become aware that there just might be a better way to live than what we have accepted so far.

Your friend on the path forward,

ds