Out of the fog...
Out of the fog...
G,
It's been a long road. I loved you so deeply, and you didn't deserve it. I'm still miserable over you, but I'm working on it...
I finally took your number out of my phone-today. The last fragment of you....
As time goes by, I remember more and more....things I don't want and never intend to go back to...
You promised so much, made all these wonderful plans with me. Lies....bullshit is a better word, I guess...
I was so under your thumb....for awhile....not now...
I think about you every day, but that will fade...
Do I wish you the best? No...
Do I think fondly of your daughters? No...
Am I getting me back? Do I feel my sense of worth? Yes...
Do I miss your hypochondriac ways? Do I miss serving your meals to you in your bed like a waitrtess? Do I miss meaningless sex? No...
I miss truth... never had that with you.
I miss our first year, that man. But, that was really me, wasn't it? Before you sucked out my soul.
I miss laughing...you can't...
I miss being loved....you can't...
I miss compassion....you can't...
If love ever finds me again, If I let it, it will be healthy....you aren't...
Goodbye G....you ruined me...but I'm rebuilding....
Your Baby....no more....
P.S. You might want to invest in some fireproof clothing....you'll probably need it....
So much the same
Great Goodbye