So now that I'm getting closer to 4 weeks I stopped counting the days NC.
I am so grateful for this site because it has opened up my eyes to things I normally wouldn't have known. I used to be the person that broke NC all the time trying to get validation from him. See if he still cared about me or missed me or if he felt like he made a mistake.
The things that I have realized that he has said that we're huge red flags are amazing. He even told me that he didn't know why he couldnt be that person that he promised me he would be time and time again. I would tell him it's not that hard to just show someone you love them an he said "I will do it when I am ready" no hun... You should just do it period.
I also made a huge step by quitting the place that him and I worked at together. I stayed there picking up a weekend shift like every other weekend just because I had pride and I didn't want to completely leave the place that I loved working at just because of a stupid man. But the
Anxiety I would get just from being there was unbearable and not a healthy way to work. Now that I have been away I feel SO MUCH BETTER. And I don't have to fear bumping into him anymore.
Thank you all for helping me realize so much and being there for me.
And Round 3.... You are doing so awesome! I enjoy your posts! Keep it up :)