A friend of mine gave me this...I posted it not knowing the link...soooo...as the rules state, it was deleted...I know the rules of this forum, so I found the link...thought this was too good not to share...
With thanks to our member 134Dragon who wrote the article below
I think when a N wants you to forgive him, he means.
Dear Person that I hurt,
I wanted to apologize for hurting myself, Deep down inside, I know that you were to good for me and because of that I hurt you, because of that, I am alone and I feel sorry for myself. I have yet again, failed at an attempt to rule someone else, they saw me for who I am. I feel compelled to write you a letter of apology so I can make myself feel better and deal with the way I know I treat people and as long as you can forgive me I can go on existing. Please let me exist to you? You hold a power over me like I once believed I held over you, simply by not letting me in. Simply by not letting me get to you, hurt you, see you, talk to you, and take take take! The love you gave me.
I made you feel special, like you were the one who was going to change my heart and yet, you didn't fall for it. You see me for who I am... This I simply cannot deal with. I hate myself, a lot... My existence is through you and others who acknowledge I exist... Can I PLEASE exist to you?
I know you wish this letter was written because I feel sorry that I hurt you, its not.. I am writing it because I hurt MYSELF, I feel bad for myself... I could care less what your up to, as long as you feed me something once in a while...
You're one smart cookie! Ignoring me, who do you think you are? I AM GOD, never forget that.... I control you, I control your thoughts, your dreams, you past, present and your future... only because you let me though, and how dare you try to rule your own life? Just who the F^%$%# do you think you are?
This is MY world, you exist to please me, got it? If you disobey what I WANT, I WILL make sure you pay for this… I’ll do little things that piss you off, or make you wonder if its me behind it… I’ll play internet games, call your friends and pretend to be that good guy you met, you know? The one I pretended to be to “lure” you in to world…. The one no one believes went away except for you…the one none of your friends or family saw, Im a good actor huh? I should get an award… I rock!
We can pretend though that you don’t think of me… I know you do.. Right????
RIGHT!? Do I exist to you afterall????? In confused…. How could I once use you like a puppet and now you leave me hanging like this… I WANT THAT CONTROL BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT IT BACK! GIVE IT TO ME!...
Please? I miss you… Not really but I know this will lure you back in… God I’m so smart. . .I should write a book on how to mess with peoples heads like I can mess with yours. . . Your dumb! Not really, I AM DUMB, I like to project my problems on to you, because you will always be stronger then me. I wish I were you, I really wish I were you…. Can I be you? I tried to take you away, for myself! Why didn’t you let me have it? You think your slick huh? You cant fool me, I believe I am superior to you…. But, only because you let me believe this every time you even TALK, THINK, DREAM about me… I bet you wish you could get me out of your head like I can get you out of mine huh?
I threw you away like a piece of trash because, you are nothing more to me but an object. A toy, you know… that kids play with? But as long as you let me play with you, I can survive, I can know I exist, I can know I am worth something to someone….. Please?
P.S. I just want you to know that, there is someone better out there for you, hes waiting to meet you and I’ll be damned if I won’t try my hardest to make sure you never meet him. If you do, I’ll make sure I am always on your mind so you never forget and I can once again, trick you.