For me, this summer has been a lot about moving forward emotionally and In Action in my life.
I was so stalled for so long, IN the marriage. And then Getting Out was consuming.
Now, I can remember who I am, and I've taken action (blessed to be able to) help me remember, to verify the truth of who I am. I have seen old friends and places, and lived as authentically as I can. I have done projects that prove to me and to the world (whoever cares) that I am real and strong and that if I fell, I am standing again.
TODAY for the first time in YEARS I can actually REMEMBER my dream for my life.
That dream that included a loving relationship with a man, to father my children and build a strong family, a home, and a future.
Today I remember it, and it doesn't hurt.
I was tricked by a con-man and robbed of some years of my life.
But my life is not over. my dream for my life is still alive.
I remembered my dream for my life today. And it doesn't hurt.
It is still there and strong.
And it is okay that I am divorced. It is okay that I am THIS age instead of THAT age.
And, just like before, it is okay that my dream may not come true.
My dream will not cause me pain.
I am happy to remember it. By remembering that dream for my life, and by having that hope restored, I remember who I am -- I remember that my soft heart is in my chest and that so much of what became damaged is repairable. And so much of what was lost, was never real anyway, was a burden & impediment anyway.
And I can hold my dream for my life in the same way as I always did before a psychopath crossed my path.
To be clear: I can see a man coming into my life in the future. This excites me. It does not scare me. I am happy that my intuition is telling me that a good man is coming into my life.