It was day one of NC.. I sat in my bed all morning trying to will myself to put on a smile some makeup do my hair do something to resist any contact. So I got ready got my boys headed to my patents house that is an hour away... It's been 12 hrs and I haven't talked to him or anything.. I was actually feeling almost proud of myself. I get to my parents house and visit and decide to call a friend of mine and see if she wants to go to dinner so I meet her for dinner and I start seeing the texts .. I hate myself for almost feeling relieved knowing he was thinking if me..almost like some sort of validation? I didn't respond .. The only thing I texted was asking him to "stop trying" that was it!! I shouldn't have done that then his texts start on how much he loves me needs me all that bs.. I leave dinner go to my parents house..I get a text from him saying if I dont call him he'll kill himself...so stupid me... I call him.. I don't doubt him he has the capability of doing something that crazy.. so I talk to him I listen to his sorrys and his love for me.. I tell him I don't wanna hear his words I'm tired of his empty words ..he's always so lovey and great when I had my fill so I hang up.. I put my phone in my car i talked with my parents for a while went to leave saw I had a text that he sent saying he was gonna do it.. I had another text from an unknown number saying he shot himself!! I hit the pavement my legs went weak I screamed cried apologized for not being there for him!! I called the number asked what was goin on they said they heard my bf shot himself.. My dad picks up off the ground carries me into the house I'm screaming crying apologizing shaking dying.. My dad tells me he will drive me to the hospital which is 1-2 hrs away depending in where it us.. I call one if my nbf friend tell him what's goin on.. I tell his friend my dads bringing me there his friend is trying to get info..on the way to get to my bf the friend calls telling me it's all a joke.! My NBF is fine ..I'm in shock my dad us pissed I can't believe it... This guy is insane!! I can't make this crap up .. What was gonna happen when I got to his town to find him??? Why would he do that to me? I turned back around went to my parents and sat in total disbelief.. My nbf calked me and said it's a small town his friend was worried about him because my nbf made a comment and this other guy couldn't find my bf so they thought my nbf shot himself .wtf!!! Who does cruel shit like this !!! Has anyone EvER been through anything like this...I told my nbf it was cruel I said I was devastated .. He told me ,"well atleast I know you love me."
Ya know dinner with my friend and being at my parents I felt Like me u felt happy..NC felt nice and then I got that text