not gonna contact him, but im not sure what im gonna do if he contacts me...

not gonna contact him, but im not sure what im gonna do if he contacts me...
Posted August 7, 2012 - 2:13pm
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so its been 2months NC.. he strarted the silient treatment on me once again so im going NC on him..although sometimes i do get to thinkin like wondering what would happen if i contacted him or just wanting to see what his response would be..or just getting so upset that i want to curse him out so bad but i its just thoughts..i have to be honest if he does try to contact me which im not sure he will idk why i think its diff this time but i do..but i said this the last time.. it just feels over and for the first time i want to actually put effort into maybe letting it go this time..giving myself a chance to actually be happy..and not disrespected and verbally and physically abused..maybe just maybe i can gain power back after 4yrs im so drained..i used to be a very strong person before this..but the one thing im scared of is him cntacting me and me not having enough will power to ignore it.. what does that mean? does that mean deep down im not ready for it to be over and the only reason why im not calling him is because hes not calling me??

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florence's picture

NC means Shutting the door

August 7, 2012 - 3:39pm — florence (not verified)

Firmly. Then you can move forward and heal. It ain't an overnight process, but I can vouch for the weight off shoulders and mind from blocking all poss lines of communication. No more need to worry about has he hasn't he. It no longer matters and you are FREE! Floxx

Hunter's picture

Yep... If you want him gone

August 7, 2012 - 2:45pm — Hunter

Yep...

If you want him gone you change everything so that he can't make contact..

It's very simple ...

If you follow the rules you will get better .. If you don't .. You will continue to feel like this.,
The choice is yours !!

Hunter

Deidre99's picture

Just change your phone

August 7, 2012 - 2:37pm — Deidre99

Just change your phone number. Or block his.

The obsessing over him not calling or calling will cease, once you do this. You will gain power like you never thought possible...immediately. It's an interesting thing, but it does help us to take back our power a bit.

lessonlearned's picture

wondering

August 7, 2012 - 2:26pm — lessonlearned

i wonder what it would feel like to put my hand down on that hot stove? everyone always told me to be careful because if i touch it the pain will be horrible & i'll be hurt. but it doesn't LOOK harmful...it's just a stove. how bad could it really be? i mean, if i just press my hand down on this bright red part here -

OWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWOWWWWWWWWWWWOOOOOOO#$@%^)(+_)&^%$$#%$^*&^)(*#$#@^%&*()*^$%$#*&^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

iamwoman: touching the stove is fine as long as it's cool/turned off (he's not contacting you). if the stove is ON (he contacts you), you need to REMEMBER WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF YOU TOUCH IT (don't answer!)

no need to be curious about what will happen if you make contact, right? you already know that it won't be anything good.

put it to bed. don't touch the hot stove. this is how you heal.