Hi everyone. I am having a bad morning. Me, my parents, and my kids are all leaving in the morning for vacation so I am getting everything ready. My husband helped me plan this and of course he was going until he told me a month ago he no longer wanted to be with me.
I am having a really hard time remembering all that he said we would do on vacation and how wonderful it was going to be. I will have fun but I miss my husband so much it is killing me. I had such a good day yesterday and now I feel I am back to square 1. I started taking antidepressants. I am just a mess.
His family is having a birthday party for our son and a couple cousins and they invited me to come but I just can't go. It is too hard. I love his family so much and they know what he is doing to me. I just can't face them and I feel horrible because his mom started crying when I talked to her earlier and told her I wasn't coming.
This is all such a mess. Please any advice on how to get through this is welcome. I miss him and this is all tearing me apart right now. He just doesn't seem to care about any of it :(