I'm so sad, can't stop crying. I've read the books and every word on this website and others. I'm in therapy for 2 years now, since the first D&D.I know he is disordered and that I'm better off him (2 months NC), but I don't feel the pain is lessing.
Everyday I go to work, put a mask of normality on and by the end of the day, when I get to my car to go back home, I cry like a little girl.
I miss him so much, or the idea of him or whatever, but the point is I'm suffering and it doesn't seem to get better.
Sorry for being so negative, but I feel desperate