I thought I had indifference but after having to have LC with him this week I realized that I don't have indifference. I mean, I'm ok as long as I don't have to see or hear the bastard but any communication of any kind puts me right back into the addiction of wanting to kill him. i wish to be over what he did to me. I know that staying single is the way to heal but in some ways I feel that by not being with someone else, it keeps the emotion( even if it's hate) focused on him. I want out fr all ties with him... Nothing is worth feeling never ending pain. if we could all just go back in time... But we can't, this shit is real and we we effin are. he's such an asshole