He is dead, I am 1yr out this week and i am so damn depressed again and I don't know why, maybe it's because his birthday is Tuesday not that I would have told him happy bday , but the fact that he will no longer be around or even have a bday depresses me.
I have been doing pretty good for the most part but this week has really hit me hard, did anyone else have a set back at a yr? I cannot believe how time has flown by once the fog cleared, but this week it feels like the nightmare started yesterday! I still read and even back track from the beginning, he is dead , but I still have to remind myself of so much that happened and why, even though I know why it all happened and it wasn't my fault, i still have to go back to square one and start over with reading, I think this is what keeps me sane! I know it will pass, and usually does within an hour, but this time it is sticking around a little longer. And I hate it!