I've read so much about how we need to work on ourselves and look at what made us allow this to happen and that we need to learn to be alone and not need a significant other to complete us . While I can see the logic in that and I agree it is a great way to be as there are no certainties in life ( apart from a Marc being an abusive freak) but statistically people in stable relationships are healthier and suffer less mental health problems.
While I fully accept that being in a narc relationship is extremely detrimental to physical and mental health and we should never stay in such a damaging relationship for fear of being alone I sit here tonight alone and lonely. There's no denying it. I don't want to be alone. I don't think I will ever cure that.
Tonight I've had my biggest wobble. My children are both elsewhere for the night and I've never felt so alone. This isn't the life I wanted and scared :(