That is about as close to the "two year" mark as you can get I imagine!!! My recovery would have been faster if I would have maintained the NC the first go around, but hell give or take three months - compared to more years of this hellish experience.
Today I can ask myself this question and come up with the answer I just wanted to pass on to you: "What didnt I have that his Girlfriend/Wife had"? In fact today I turn that question around, NOW I ask, "What do I have today that she doesnt have"? I have EVERYTHING she doesnt have; I am whole and I am complete, for I know without a doubt she has none of that - for anybody on this earth that stays with a psychopath (for YEARS) will eventually "Abandon thyself at the doorway" as they enter their world. She will do this for a LONG time unknowingly, (and some are quite aware) but her gut and intuition will always be pullling at her - its always there!!!! She is afraid, scared, brainwashed - she is many things - just as I once was - the ONLY thing she has that I dont have is a PSYCHOPATH - she never had ANYTHING I never had - that is the only thing we both had that we shared - I dont want to know her, because she is just the old version of who I once was -
I ask myself another good question - "what do I have NOW that I never had before? EVERYTHING - If I died tomorrow I would die knowing I have my true self - and I no longer need anyone to hold up a mirror to show me that -
It took ONE YEAR AND 40 WEEKS of my life to realize what really matters in life - we have NOTHING if we cant be true to ourselves; too bad a psychopath had to teach me that - his purpose for me is done - he can lay down and die for all I care. Keep moving on because at the end of this painful journey you will embrace so much more than just recovering from a psycho - x0