One of things that has always made it hardest for me to let go of him was the happiness we had in the beginning..and wanting those moment back. When the N and I first got together a lot of girlfriends joked it's not fair why cant they find happiness like that....... N being 6'2, handsome, charasmatic, good with kids,a good job, nice car etc etc
I have previously been in touch with his previous supply but yesterday had a real wake up call....One of the happiest days early on...was a an earlier summers day last year in which the N and I went for a walk at a forest nearby and had a picnic...just one of those times when everything feels right.
So just through chatting away she told me how it all came to an end between her and him (it just helped me a lot to do this and hear another woman had experienced similar to what I had)...Anyway, she said last time she ever saw him and told me the date (3 days after me and him had got together)...they went for a walk and went for lunch...it turns out to the exact same place he'd taken me only a month later!!!She says that day he had been telling her he still missed her and loved her, but had a date later that evening (me!). I remember the date and day of the week as I have a very good memory like that..She was able to prove this by showing me an FB message sent on that day with the time and date telling her best friend what had happened that day and how he'd upset her....so whilst I was at work and the date for the evening..........he was seeing her in the day.
And although nothing physical happened between them that day...it still has really made me think! and I loved this man so much....