I cannot stop crying. It isn't even about him so much anymore, it's just my life. I'm supposed to be moving, and I have no one to help me, no one who cares. I tried moving some stuff by myself, but I had a heart attack on Easter and I just can't do it. My unemployment was cut off this week. I am running out of money fast. My divorce lawyer wants more money. My medical bills are piling up.
The one nice guy I had met on Match came by and pretty much let me know he just wants to be friends. That is why I don't use match anymore. I'm always the "friend". So here I am again. Friday and Saturday nights alone in my house, supposed to be packing and all I'm doing is crying and listening to sad music. I'm trying to think of a reason to get up in the morning and I can't.