Yesterday I had a really good day out and met some new friends but today is so hard.
I've noticed that whenever I meet new people I hurt because it makes me think how I miss him and how he's not here. It's almost like I HAVE to meet new people now when what I really wanted was these decent people to be him.
This morning I feel so sad and teary when I should be happy to have met some new people. One of them is a man who will be working on a project with me. This man is the opposite to my ex just in how he looks and acts and he's about twenty years younger than my ex (who was older than me).
It's just so hard and hurts to see people who seem decent and wonder why he couldn't be like them (or if he just couldn't be like them with me but with his new woman he can because she's older).
Does anyone else ever feel this?