What will you become after this experience? For some this is a question too soon to ask, as you are still undergoing a type of metamorphis in your recovery.
Are you willing to let a part of you die with the psychopath that came into your life? That part of you that will NEVER allow this to happen again. Will you choose to be left bitter, lonley, scorned and afraid to trust in humanity as a whole? Perhaps you will choose what I have chosen; to hold my head high and share with the world my rebirth and newly acquired wisdom and knowledge. If you choose the first option you will become everything the psychopath would LOVE to see; if you become the later you will WIN, and there is nothing that defeats and disengages evil greater than to look down upon it with distain and pity. Psychopaths relish in destroying lives, no matter how much you feel or believe he has destroyed you, recognize him for what he is. His sick psychological destructive games are SO FAR beneath your beautiful humanity.
He wanted to destroy you because you have everything he will NEVER have. "If I cant have it, either can you" type of mentality. THey spend their lives trying to destroy the good in others, all the traits they wish they had. KNOW with all your heart he was in your life because of your GREATNESS; a psychopath can never love another persons greatness; he can only abuse and destroy it. Recovering from a psychopath is like finding your soul mate and waking up a month or years later to an axe murderer - thats what it FEELS like.
To my special friend who wants her x path to dare say her name to future victims; what you call yourself makes no difference to him; Suzie Hammer, Kathy Hammer, Brenda Hammer, he will smear them all and come out looking like the GOOD GUY, but in ways we may never see just know the destruction they have done to others will come back to them and I believe that with all my heart. Besides my friend, he would never call you by your real name anyway, your real name is HERO - you have risen to the stars and you have left him in the pits of hell where he will always be - You are a hero and you dont even know it - we all are - x0x0x0