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Your REBIRTH
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Your REBIRTH
Posted June 13, 2012 - 10:38am
What will you become after this experience? For some this is a question too soon to ask, as you are still undergoing a type of metamorphis in your recovery.
Are you willing to let a part of you die with the psychopath that came into your life? That part of you that will NEVER allow this to happen again. Will you choose to be left bitter, lonley, scorned and afraid to trust in humanity as a whole? Perhaps you will choose what I have chosen; to hold my head high and share with the world my rebirth and newly acquired wisdom and knowledge. If you choose the first option you will become everything the psychopath would LOVE to see; if you become the later you will WIN, and there is nothing that defeats and disengages evil greater than to look down upon it with distain and pity. Psychopaths relish in destroying lives, no matter how much you feel or believe he has destroyed you, recognize him for what he is. His sick psychological destructive games are SO FAR beneath your beautiful humanity.
He wanted to destroy you because you have everything he will NEVER have. "If I cant have it, either can you" type of mentality. THey spend their lives trying to destroy the good in others, all the traits they wish they had. KNOW with all your heart he was in your life because of your GREATNESS; a psychopath can never love another persons greatness; he can only abuse and destroy it. Recovering from a psychopath is like finding your soul mate and waking up a month or years later to an axe murderer - thats what it FEELS like.
To my special friend who wants her x path to dare say her name to future victims; what you call yourself makes no difference to him; Suzie Hammer, Kathy Hammer, Brenda Hammer, he will smear them all and come out looking like the GOOD GUY, but in ways we may never see just know the destruction they have done to others will come back to them and I believe that with all my heart. Besides my friend, he would never call you by your real name anyway, your real name is HERO - you have risen to the stars and you have left him in the pits of hell where he will always be - You are a hero and you dont even know it - we all are - x0x0x0
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Awesome !!! Hunter
June 14, 2012 - 9:14am — HunterAwesome !!!
Hunter
That was beautiful..thank you
June 14, 2012 - 8:33am — chris53That was beautiful..thank you for sharing this with us! :-)
So important -- who we will become!
June 13, 2012 - 10:56pm — abrevaOh My Gosh this is beautiful!
That was beautiful - and so
June 13, 2012 - 4:01pm — Totally StunnedThat was beautiful - and so very helpful in everyone's recovery. I speficially liked the part when you said,
" KNOW with all your heart he was in your life because of your GREATNESS". We are valuable, they selected us because of our greatness.... and we should never let go of the fact that we are strong, confident, amazing women!!!
Love to you...
Great way to put it!
June 13, 2012 - 12:16pm — NarcJunkie"Are you willing to let a part of you die with the psychopath that came into your life?"
This just made something go click in my mind. Yes, I AM willing to let the old Me die... I can't wait!
I was lying in bed this morning reflecting on all the issues I've had in my life for years... wondering when and how they started and how I can get rid of them. I've been stuck in my ways for so long it's hard to believe sometimes that I'm capable of that much change.
But maybe I was just a bit more annoyed at myself than usual... or more willing to change? I got up, made myself a tea and then did all the dishes, cleaned the entire kitchen and bathroom which had been neglected for months. I am determined to finally unpack my suitcases, get rid of the Ikea boxes and create a beautiful and tidy space for myself from now on! :)
Rock on, NarcJunkie!
June 13, 2012 - 12:26pm — spinningI so love hearing this from you.
Your beloved mother has given you uet another a gift even in her passing! Isn't that beautiful? The same thing happened to me with my dad's dying process. He gave me a gift even in death.
I just love it.
This is how you create a beautiful life filled with the relationships and love you deserve and desire. I am proud of you.
Love,
(not) spinning. AND SO VERY GRATEFUL FOR THAT!
Thank you, Spinning :)
June 13, 2012 - 1:27pm — NarcJunkieYes, it seems that somehow.. losing someone can give our life a turn for the better. It massively readjusts our priorities for sure.
I feel very much in limbo these days, but it doesn't feel bad. I am much more humble and compassionate, yet also more determined it seems. What my mom made me understand is: the only thing that matters is love, in all its forms :)
Simply beautiful and what I
June 13, 2012 - 11:16am — SunBlossomSimply beautiful and what I need just at this moment. Thank you so much!! :-)
Thank you for posting this,
June 13, 2012 - 10:56am — DawnWinsThank you for posting this, I'm trying to remember what I was pre-N, it's been a long time.
Then I had the thought of reinvention, being and doing everything that I never thought I could. I've survived an ex addict and now exNH. Survived childhood N father. I am still here...alive and strong (well getting there LOL) I want to be that hero to my children.
ExNH can return to the depths of hell from which he came from.
I sometimes wonder why 7
June 13, 2012 - 10:54pm — bluegirlI sometimes wonder why 7 months of being with this person changed me so dramatically. When I read stories of your recoveries after being with the N for YEARS I am amazed at your strength.
I will never be the same person I was before. Right now I am really still in limbo, and probably will be until I a secure a new job. When I move into my new place all ties with the husband are severed, except divorce arguments, and even though i will be really broke for a long time, it is worth it. I think the final step will be employment, hopefully at something that isn't horrible, so I can really begin to regain my sense of self-worth.