He wasn't the first thing on my mind. I didn't even realize it until I thought of him a couple minutes later. It feels like I'm reaching a new level of this. I guess I'm finally accepting what actuallt happened and accepting that he will never change. This NC feels different. Now I am realizing that his ST he always pulled on me were NC also, but a completey different NC than ours. The difference was ( and i am sure many of you experienced this) he would be telling me he loved me one day, and completely cut me off without warning the next day. No explanation, just blocked, deleted off fb and ignored. Then he would talk to me again on his terms, and tell me it was because of something I did. Well, never again will anyone have that kind control over me.