I was listening some music this morning with my iPod on "random". This song came on, and until I heard it again, I had completely forgotten that xnh dedicated it to me soon after we first got together. At the time, I thought he was being funny. I'm not so convinced now. Personally, I suspect it was one of those HUGE red flags that I completely ignored. Talk about brutal honesty. Xnh was flat-out telling me what he really is like underneath his mask, and I was completely using magical thinking to NOT hear what he was telling me! This was probably among the VERY few times that he wasn't lying to me about himself. He was actually being very demeaning and insulting. *I* didn't even get what he was telling me, at the time.

Now, I just wake up EVERY day and thank God that I'm free of xnh, and he is OUT of my life completely. I am SO much more than "good enough for now". Therefore, KISS MY ASS, xnh! :)

Anyway, the song is by Weird Al Yandovic. The lyrics are below and you can hear it here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xbFU6w7q3dQ&feature=player_embedded

Oh, I couldn't live a single day without you
Actually, on second thought, well, I suppose I could
Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, honey, you're the greatest
Well, at any rate, I guess you're...pretty good,

Now, it seems to me I'm relatively lucky
I know I probably couldn't ask for too much more
I honestly can say you're an above-average lady
You're almost just what I've been looking for.

You're sort of everything I ever wanted
You're not perfect, but I love you anyhow
You're the woman that I've always dreamed of
Well, not really...but you're good enough for now.

You're pretty close to what I've always hoped for
That's why my love for you is fairly strong
And I swear I'm never gonna leave you, darlin'
At least 'til something better comes along.

'Cause you're sort of everything I ever wanted
You're not perfect, but I love you anyhow
You're the woman that I've always dreamed of
Well, not really...but you're good enough for now
No, not really...but you're good enough for now.