Hello! I had joined this forum one year and one week ago, and haven't posted here since late 2011, so hopefully the people that were regular posters at that time have "graduated" too.
Just wanted to reach back and offer some encouragement to those of you who are just waking up to the abuse. It is absolutely, entirely possible to heal and move n and be happy. No matter what dark places you may find yourself in during your healing journey, ride it out. Stay NC. I used to repeat that mantra all the time when I posted here, because it cannot be said enough. That is the single most important act of caring you can do for yourself, in recovering from an assclown.
Wishing all of you great love and light and hope and happiness.