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goodbye non-relationship
marigold
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goodbye non-relationship
Posted May 24, 2012 - 9:47am
I knew you never really cared about me and I never really cared about you either but I'm still mad at you for pursuing me knowing it meant nothing to you. I both enjoyed and was disgusted by the attention at the same time. I used our "relationship" to distract myself from the fact that I didn't have a real one. Even though I know you're a selfish jerk and it's not about me, it still hurts that you didn't see me as special. What were you thinking when you started sending me messages? Why did you do it? It was because you're selfish and uncaring. I wanted you to be different even though I knew you weren't. I knew better than to get involved with you.
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Marigold, there are so many
May 24, 2012 - 11:38am — SparrowMarigold, there are so many mixed messages within this good bye letter. You start by saying you never really cared about him. You weren't into him. But want to know why he didn't view you as special............
I believe that you are seeking validation, endlessly seeking. This is very concerning for many reasons. Are you in therapy? If not, please seek out a therapist so you can get to the root of what is causing you to seek out this validation from others. Especially those you claim to not care about in the first place. You admit to actually "using" him" to get over someone else and are angry at him for not succumbing to you?
You will discover in time, what is causing you to have these strong desires. Good luck!
follow up
May 24, 2012 - 1:51pm — marigoldAlso I can't really afford therapy. I went for a little while because I know I'd benefit from it, but couldn't continure b/c of the cost. That's one of the reasons I'm here.
This letter wasn't well
May 24, 2012 - 11:45am — marigoldThis letter wasn't well thought our or written. It was kind of just rambling thoughts. Lots of detail that would make it make more sense where left out. This is just me trying to work things out and sometimes getting them out this way makes it easier for me to see what I'm trying to say. But thanks for responding.
commented here by mistake.
May 24, 2012 - 1:53pm — marigoldcommented here by mistake. moved it up