I knew you never really cared about me and I never really cared about you either but I'm still mad at you for pursuing me knowing it meant nothing to you. I both enjoyed and was disgusted by the attention at the same time. I used our "relationship" to distract myself from the fact that I didn't have a real one. Even though I know you're a selfish jerk and it's not about me, it still hurts that you didn't see me as special. What were you thinking when you started sending me messages? Why did you do it? It was because you're selfish and uncaring. I wanted you to be different even though I knew you weren't. I knew better than to get involved with you.