I know it is silly of me to ask this, but I guess there is a part of me that hope he does. Does he really not have a heart?
I've been NC for 4 weeks as of today, but I am having a really rough week. I just really miss him. I woke up thinking about him this morning, and it made me really sad. I was okay the last couple of weeks, but I can't get him off of my mind the last few days.
I won't reach out - that much I know, but I really want to. I play out in my mind how wonderful it would be to be with him again, but I know it'll just end badly in another round of D&D. I wish this isn't so hard. I just want to get over him and move on, but even without his presence, it seems impossible.
I really hope I will feel better as time passes. I just want to be able to trust people again.