At first I thought it was my low self-esteem. But lately I know something is different. I have always been good at talking to people. I am happy without being obnoxious, I am giving, I am a good listener and a good talker. I take care of myself and I dress amazingly.
Friends that already have known me for a long time still love me. People I meet suddenly treat me differently. I have tried a few dates, because for me it was about finding out what "normal" is again, and how far I have to go. Dates have always liked me because I am sort of pretty, I am fun without being obnoxious, I don't drink and get drunk, one drink or two at the most. I think of interesting things to do. I'm intelligent, I read up on many different subjects so have something to talk about. And nothing. There is not a real flicker of interest in me. Even dates I thought went exceptionally well, very soon into the relationship they lose interest, period. I swear I do not talk about exes, I don't not whine, I do not ask for sympathy, and I do not indicate I'm looking for an "all in" relationship yet,but want to go slow. At a job interview the manager told me I was too nervous and wouldn't be a good fit. So now I have zero confidence for job interview as well.
I have decided to can the dating. I have more than enough to get done, and the last thing I need is more constant rejection - between job interviews that go nowhere, two men hitting me from each side with nastiness (well one tries, the husband to be ex soon does it through court papers now instead of phone insults because I won't talk to him)
What is wrong with me?????