I wish I could make it go away

I wish I could make it go away
Posted May 21, 2012 - 12:30pm
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The scratches and brusies on my face wont go away, the DA wont let me stop talking, advocates keeps calling, my therapist wants me to go in. The doctor wants a CatScan, and I just want it all to go away. My husband doesnt want me back, he just wanted me to stop making him look like an ass, that is all he said. He told me he would bury me if I didnt stop, and now everyone else is taking charge and that isnt stoping. I just want to call Brandt and say I am sorry, I didnt call the police, I did what you said I swear I did. I need him to know it wasnt me, if he is thinking that I did all this whats to say that he wont come back?? I tried the shelter, but my daughter has issues and the rules there would freak her out. I need to protect my kids. I just want this to be over. and then my lawyer tells me this morning that if he is convicted he will loose all of his guns! He will for sure kill me if that is the case, his guns are everything. I just want to drop everything but the DA says I dont get a choice, its not up to me. When will anything be up to me!

‹ 12 Days Out I PROMISE ALL OF YOU..... ›
Hunter's picture

Honey, I'm very sorry this is

May 21, 2012 - 1:00pm — Hunter

Honey, I'm very sorry this is happening to you.,

You are receiving the spot light attention because this is very serious..you are in danger and the man causing it needs to be punished ..

You will make it go away by taking charge if the abuser ..

Don't be afarid .. You will see when this " goes away " you be an empowered woman !!

Be strong and fight
Hunter

Sparrow's picture

This is a VERY serious

May 21, 2012 - 12:46pm — Sparrow

This is a VERY serious situation. PLEASE be safe. I suggest you speak to Goldie regarding this matter.

Stay strong and please, please be safe.

Emjbear's picture

Thank you but I dont have any

May 21, 2012 - 12:50pm — Emjbear

Thank you but I dont have any money for a private session. I just had to ask my mother in law for money to buy snacks for my duaghters last tball game. I am not sure how this site works, but if I am out of line for posting I am sorry too. I just feel very alone.

spinning's picture

Emj, you are not out of line

May 21, 2012 - 1:49pm — spinning

and you are not alone.

You are, however, still thinking like someone who has been abused for a long time by a controlling abuser. This is NOT YOUR FAULT. It is conditioning. It is okay, but you need to realize that your thought process is clouded by this.

Can you call the shelter and ask to speak with a hotline worker, it's free and they will help you feel stronger in your mind and stronger about what is going on with regard to law enforcement.

Remember, dear Emj, HE BROKE THE LAW. It's not YOUR FAULT that HE BROKE THE LAW. You had nothing to do with that except being HIS VICTIM. Law enforcement is looking at it strictly from that point of view. Tell them your concerns (about your personal safety, etc.) and they will help protect you.

Tell your family and your neighbors and friends. Tell everyone what is going on and what concerns you. You are not alone. It will be okay. Communicate with law enforcement, tell them the truth of how frightened you are. Call the shelter and speak with a hotline worker. It will help.

Love,
(not) spinning. BUT I FEEL LIKE SPINNING YOUR ABUSER RIGHT OFF THE PLANET