Am I been too dramatic?

Am I been too dramatic?
Posted May 21, 2012 - 4:08pm
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I used to hate Mondays but now that hate is been taken to a whole new level thanks to the Narc. Mondays to me are like the devastation after the storm…After he drops off the baby he finds ways to get to me directly, indirectly; with subtle messages he continues to tell me that he is the boss…he gets the last word.
All I wish is to get a break, for him to go away and leave me be. I know I’m strong but dealing with him makes me feel so week, so fragile. Sometimes I feel like giving up, let him have it his way. I hate been a drama queen and I even feel ashamed of talking about the same thing in here. This man took almost everything I had (emotional and material) and if I allow him he will take my soul.
God, why won’t he just go away?
Grymel

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Thank you

May 22, 2012 - 9:56am — Grymel

I hear all of you, I'm trying my best to heal it just that I am tired. I have kids with two narcs and each one takes turns to make my lif hell,plus I have a narc boss. All of this is taking a toll on my emotional and physical health. I don't know how much longer I can take this. Thank you for your understanding.
Grymel

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Grymel

May 22, 2012 - 8:34am — onwithmylife

I feel so sorry for what you are going through, thank God no kids with the narc for me, but talked to several of his wives who had his kids and it is a long struggle since you have to have contact with him, hang in there and try to keep minimal contact.............the kids are only for control to him, no real caring, it is all a facade.

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you are not

May 21, 2012 - 7:22pm — TruthbeginsToday

Just the fact that you are feeling bad or wrong for talking about it and needing help/support says that HE is in your head.

Don't ever feel bad for talking it out EVER! You will learn to be stronger. Being here...will help you get to where you need to be emotionally and physically.

I lost everything too and I remember thinking I was fighting for my soul. WELL, Not only did I hold on to it...but it's stronger than it has been in a long long time. It took awhile..I had to get out...which took awhile and then I needed rest and clarity..it took time to process it all.

Don't give up.Keep reading and venting.

(hug)

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Grymel

May 21, 2012 - 6:54pm — Movingforwardnow

They are "crazy makers" Sorry you still have to deal with him.

Have you read Lisas book? Have you done a one on one with Goldie? How about the support group?

These things will all help.

Just take a deep breath and when you know you are about to have to deal with him remind yourself of what he is and will always be.

Try some positive self-talk.

Just suggestions, the MODS are better at advice. I just like to share my own experience, strength and hope.

Hang in there.
mfn

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Don't let him get to you

May 21, 2012 - 5:31pm — Rising Dawn

No, you are NOT being too dramatic. They make us crazy like that because they are who they are.

Please, please, please don't let him win.

You are the better person,and he's just doing those things so he can be in control. He's playing on your emotions to get a reaction for his own narcissistic glory. He's an emotional parasite - nothing more. He doesn't deserve your time and energy more than an actual pest.

You are strong, and you will not let him take your soul. I know it's one thing to know it in your head, but another to believe it with your being. But trust me, you will get through this. Just remember, you can squash him by taking away the emotions, his narcissistic supply - YOU are the one with the power, not him.