Bowling Night

Bowling Night
Posted May 17, 2012 - 7:48pm
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Ok, it's bowling night again. The night ExN hangs with NS at neighbors house(my guess, I won't track to confirm) but it is hot here in the desert and my windows are open.

I can hear giggling and yelling from that general area. I had to close my kitchen window. It makes me sick. I don't even know if it's him for sure, because I refuse to go look at the cars parked outside.

Last Thursday is when I saw him driving by. I'll try not to go out tonight at around 11. I could be paranoid, but we all know what happens when we don't listen to our gut.

How fun for him to administer this subtle torture. I won't look, I won't look, I have no need to confirm what I already know..

I'm ill now.

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BtrflyGrl's picture

Ok I am paranoid

May 17, 2012 - 7:58pm — BtrflyGrl

Wow! This blows. How do I escape this scenario. It turned out to be some young girls running around and being teenagers.

He's got my head so fucked up I can't even hang. Am I wishing he was trying to bait me? OMG I'm so confusing myself.

I need somewhere to go Thursday nights. This sucks. Sorry for panicking on ya'll.

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Sparrow

May 17, 2012 - 8:11pm — BtrflyGrl

I think sparrow suggested this last week.

Now every time a car drives by I jump out of my skin.

I found some earplugs and put them in.

I didn't expect this today....Ugh

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how about

May 17, 2012 - 8:21pm — phantom adoration

going to the movies every Thursday night or going for a massage...how are you feeling btw?
As soon as he realzies you are not reacting he'll drop his balls....bowling I mean.

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Haha Phantom!

May 17, 2012 - 8:31pm — BtrflyGrl

Unfortunately, I am almost completely trapped. I can't drive, I can't walk,cant sit one place to long and I only have so many people to call upon. I'm in a bit of a pickle. I'm trying to focus on fixing what ever is wrong with me. To do that I have to rest.

I will get through this but what a crappy feeling in the mean time. I was working so hard to move forward, cleaning, sorting, trashing, rearanging, getting out... Then all of a sudden SLAM, mysterious problem where I can't feel my foot/leg. It's bizzare. I'm trying to figure out the lesson....Ugh

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On a Positive Note

May 17, 2012 - 8:33pm — BtrflyGrl

I went to work yesterday (against dr.s orders) and a lady I work with offered to take time off to take me to my MRI appt. It was such a blessing! I don't have to call on my mother. Who is totally freaking me out btw.

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Well you just have to

May 17, 2012 - 8:48pm — phantom adoration

keep her at arms length right now and for as long as it takes. She will always be your Mother and the added stress of her stress is certainly not in your best interest. They say dark clouds have a silver lining, of I am expecting mine to reveal gold...okay so you are limited in what you can do to distract you...how about making Thursday "your" I am going to spoil me tonight, a good meal, one you make or order in, even a pizza if that is an indulgence or just a pint of Chunky Monkey ice cream....maybe a bubble bath and maybe a massage at home, that can be arranged. Or you could rent a movie, make the popcorn.....
It is easy for me to make suggestions, I am not so great at doing the same for myself.
But there is always this forum to come to and chat and help you pass through the more stressful times.

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Thats a good idea Phantom.

May 18, 2012 - 10:10am — BtrflyGrl

Thats a good idea Phantom. I'm the same way, full of suggetions for other but when it comes to doing it for myself, well it just doesn't play out so well.

I made it through, I'm ok today. I just went to my room and watched TV. Went to sleep early. I need my rest anyway :)