Since Friday I can't stop crying. It has been 4 months NC and 7 not being with him. I feel like a loser. I can't even look at a guy and be attracted to him. I'm afraid he will think im a slut like exN used to say to me. He even told me I would make a great wife for someone else just not him. I should hate him but these past couple of days I miss him. My self esteem is so low. I feel like every guy is going to look at me like I'm sleazy because he called me degrading names and maybe he wa right maybe I was acting sleazy. I just want my life back :( I wnt to be happy again nd not think of him and the OW.