This is a hard question for me to ask, because no one wants to think a person in normal society would be capable of such things as poisoning someone they live with.
I know I was brainwashed into being sick for years, to keep my under control. I was told repeatedly how I could not possibly handle a job or whatever because of my health.
Now that he is gone, I am not sick any more. Go figure.
Yesterday I was thinking that even this idea does not shock me at this point. Why did I not call the police the minute I suspected it? So weird. Now I feel like it has been too long... but really - that would be attempted murder or something.
I don't know if he wanted to kill me or just keep me under control. I think the latter, but who knows in the long run.