All of your replies truly gave me a clearer insight to this struggle, I have read them over many times. In some ways the injustice of their crime was worse than the NC. Learning to accept you fell victim to a psychopath has so many layers to work through. It requires removing any and all associations of him as a human being. If you read Goldie's recent topic "For those still struggling to understand" that list is some pretty sick behavior. If you stay with them long enough they will manifest each and everyone of these traits. You might as well go down the list and check it off because it is a given that sooner or later they will do this to you, and the skilled ones will mix it with charm.
There is nothing charming about being discarded in a pile of heap from being with a person that has a serious mental disorder. All that charm and persona sure disapears fast doesnt it when your use for them has expired and they bore of you; only to further confirm what a scam it was from day one. They enjoyed us, but as a shiny new object, which brings me to another thought.....
I have read there is only a beginning with these individuals; the middle is ugly and shocking and so is the ending. They start things they can never finish. The beginning we shared with them could have never flourished and grown into a real, honest and meaningful relationship. As I look at it in this light he really did me Justice for the injustice when he discarded me. It only lead me to the truth of what he really was. I am pleased that you have discarded me disordered one so that I may move on to a better self and life. You on the other hand can slither on to play a different person to your new object that has caught your eye.
So do they get off "scott free"? and are they off "all happy" as we are left to suffer? You decide and piece it together as I am trying to do. He will fake his love and happiness as he once did for me, and we all know it never lasts because it never existed to begin with.