I am very reluctant to post this because I do not want to be laughed at by how I felt when I realized what the FREAK did to me.
So I hope I can share how I felt at the time. I became a member on this site because I felt I had finally found a safe place where I wouldn't be judged like my Narc did to me.
So here goes....
When I was finally discarded like Monday mornings trash I was extremely angry. I, like all of you, gave my heart and soul to make him happy. His repeated lies set my mind into a spin of revenge for what he did to me!! I DID allow it, but to me still NO excuse to treat someone who would have given their right arm for you so cruelly.
When that happened I wanted to expose him for the SICK, DISORDERED, person that he is.
He struts himself through this city because of his high status of a Cardiac/Thoracic Surgeon. No one crosses him because they may need his services one day...and he TOLD ME THAT!!
Not only did he fuck me up, but he fucked my children up!!! They lost their father at a young age and he played on their love for him as well. It's one thing to fuck me over but my children???? You will pay dearly for that mistake. FUCKWAD!!!
So my angry thoughts took over and I wanted to expose him for revenge!! I didn't know how to do that and then I thought about Dr. Phil (please don't laugh at me)!! I thought here is my chance to not only expose him, but to help many women/men that don't understand the monster they are with right now. By exposing him I felt I would ultimately be helping so many people to have that "light bulb moment" and understand it was never about THEM!!
It was just a thought at the time. I still feel very passionate about telling my story if only to help one person!! There is not enough awareness about this Disorder! Too many people suffer daily because they were not as lucky as I was to have figured him out and found this site.
I apologize if I babbled on about something you can not relate to.....just wanted to express my thoughts, that's all
Love to all