I actually had a pretty good day yesterday after I blocked him. On Tuesday night when I was at my celebrate recovery meeting, I let a few of the women know I was blocking him, etc and they are keeping me accountable. I some very nice calls/texts from a few new friends that they support and encourage me.
Then, at work yesterday, I told the secretaries he might call again, and just tell him I'm busy. All the people I work with know he is an incredible ASSHOLE.....they have been watching me for 2 years deteriorate to the person I am now.....they tell me all the time I'm just not the same person anymore. They know he is abusive......he did try and call my work again yesterday, and she told him I was with a patient. When she hung up, she told me he just called and everyone in the open gym it's a fairly small outpatient PT clinic).....they were all saying "don't call him" (not that I was going to, they were just supporting me)....it was amazing how they all were yesterday.....supporting me again. That helps now because if he keeps trying to call, they are also screening the calls.
What he did last night and this morning was use his son' phone so when I woke up, there were texts, calls, voicemails, etc
I started listening to one, and then said fuck it......DELETE!!! He just starting rambling bullshit again, how I am the one not willing to work on our marriage and go to counseling....he was using God to manipulate......I didn't need to listen to the new message,....it is just a bunch of bullshit he always says!!!
So, even in a few days, I am at least setting up to have support, friends to do some things with....today I will make some calls about a different counselor.....I also blocked his kids phone numbers now so he can't use their phone!
FUCK HIM.....I AM REALLY SO MAD RIGHT NOW.....I HATE THAT HE HAS TWISTED THIS AND RUINED AND DESTROYED ME LIFE, IT'S ALL MY FAULT AND NOW HE IS THE VICTIM....FUCK HIM!!!!