Day one

Day one
1

I'm going to force myself to get off the couch and off this computer to go get myself a new cell phone and number, say goodbye to the man I have been married to for 19 years on the old phone, throw that phone away and remain NC. I'm going to force myself to go to the hardware store and get a new lock and key for my home. I'm going to force myself to change all of my passwords on my accounts and block his family from my facebook account as they will only make this harder. Tomorrow morning, I'm going to force myself to get up, shower and go to work, unlike what I did today. I need to do these things for me and I need to do them right now.

dulcinea441's picture

You go, Girl!

I look forward to hearing about your new, narc-free life, congrats!

Trainwreck56's picture

Change is good!

Its all for your benefit also!

I'm sure you feel terrible, but you made the correct decision
to rid your life of him!

GO TOTAL NC IF YOU CAN, Hang in there, get some counseling too!

Good things take time, and YOU are worth it!

HUGS & PEACE IN YOUR LIFE!

TW

Kalorli's picture

Hi Trainwreck, I'm hangin in,

Hi Trainwreck, I'm hangin in, Going NC as of this very moment. I'm hoping the panic doesn't set in! I've been in counseling but I think, thanks to the information that this website has brought me, my therapist and I are finally on the same page with the direction I need to be going.

Thank you all for your responses and for being there for me!

I know I have a long road ahead but I feel so much better knowing that you are all here. I was lost in space for a long time, lol.

Hugs to you all!

Sparrow's picture

A good plan Indeed. But

A good plan Indeed. But bypass the "goodbye" to the ex. he isn't worthy of a goodbye, nor does he care unfortunately.

19 years is a long time, I'm so sorry. This will be a long road but believe me when I tell you, you will recover from this.

onwithmylife's picture

you

are saying all the things you need to do,,now put those words into actions and you will feel greatly EMPOWERED, this i can guarantee!!!

Hunter's picture

Sounds like a plan.. Hunter

Sounds like a plan..

Hunter