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Here we go again. Twisting and turning stomach churning. Oh I hate it when this part of the ride comes along. I'm ill and hurting. FUCKING ASSHOLE!!! FUCKING PRICK!!! LYING BASTARD!!! PIECE OF SHIT!!!
because once it's out, you can watch it disintigrate into nothing!
I used to walk around my house yelling some of the quotes you have above at the top of my lungs. It did me good. Thankfully I live "in the country" and my raging wails weren't heard by others! It helped me immensely. Every time I had a thought of him, that kind of poison spewed from my tongue! Once it was out, it was gone and I'd feel much better.
I burned a lot of things, too, and it helped. Symbolic and cathartic all at the same time!
It's okay to feel these things. For me the anger was way better than the sobbing "I miss him" feelings (which now I cannot believe I ever even had...there is so NOTHING TO MISS but chaos and pain). Anger was my friend for a few months. It still stops in to pay a visit now and then...but mostly I'm too busy living a great, disordered free life to think about it! You're getting there, dear Btrfly!
(not) spinning. AND IT FEELS GREAT
OMG, I know how you feel its the emotional see saw.....up and down over and over and over until we are through this stage...
I can not stand it some days....I actually feel at times I am going to snap and crack right in half, end up in the loony bin...
Hang in there ....This too shall pass...
Think of those pains, as growing pains. ;) You're on a journey, and some days, the road can be winding, and endless...and makes us car sick! lol But, there will be more days than not, that will bring clarity and peace of spirit. You're doing great, keep on keepin on! ((hugs))
Well said Deidre! There unfortunately is no quick fix!
Stay True Girls!
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