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Nuff said, I guess I got some more work to do on myself.
Me too. Hate. Rage. They have no right to be walking among normal humans.
"Deja Poo....The feeling that you've heard this crap before!" That is the ultimate narc slogan!
Ok. I was doing great all day! My kid just went to bed, i am sitting here alone and i am so pissed off right now.. I just want to text him to tell him off! I am not going to but ohhh I AM PISSED.. It came out of nowhere. I will not give him the satisfaction. I guess I cant even count today as day 1, because I had to see him to get money.. MY money which he acts like he us doing me a favor by giving me MY money!!
Go ahead and write it out here or text me exactly what u want to say to asshat. I will respond in appropriate narc fashion to end your desire to want to do that again. Text or post away my friend. 214 415 7963.
Movingforward....:You and lilygirl ROCK!!! God Bless you both for going the extra mile to reach out to us!!
Thank you!! Narc fashion? That means you would say "I am busy. Leave me alone" and then ignore me ? Lol. I am ok right now.. My post helped vent a little. I Keep thinking about how he used to tell me how lucky I was to have him because he came home every night. And how no other man would put up with me or my ADHD daughter.
We are entitled to our feelings, whatever they are. We are all entitled to our anger. Why Not? No one to stop us doing whatever we like.
I am LIVID. Every minute of every day he sits in my head. I am swearing at him like a banshee. I don't care, I am entitled to my anger.
It would have been kinder if he had run me over in his big F'ck off vehicle.
My brain needs a break, I'm miserable and frazzled, but I WILL NEVER GIVE HIM ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY TO HURT ME AGAIN.
We have all been tortured, don't underestimate the torture we have been through.
>>We have all been tortured, don't underestimate the torture we have been through.<<
You are SO right. Tortured and tossed in the trash. The unfairness of it all and the lack of sympathy and understanding and JUSTICE makes me SO angry.
You are entitled to your anger, for sure.
I saw a tshirt in a store window a few years ago when I was in NYC stuck in traffic. On the tshirt it said
I should have bought it and worn it every time I was with him!!!
Can I paint this on his car? His stupid face?
on my next trip to the city!
I live N.Y!
I will get a bunch for all the people here on the blog!
What a great shirt! I think there should be one that says on the fromt "Been there, done that got the tshirt". And on the back it should "Been NARCD once.....never again"
HAHAHA.....I was on my way back to Manhattan from Soho....
Get me one to throw in the f*rs mailbox since I'm NC now!!!
Not sure he would know which woman put it there so I'm safe!!!
I would LMAO if you found it!!!! And when you see it you will too!!!
The hate and rage is all I felt in the early days of NC, that will get better, I'm at the point where I know it was him and not me!
IT WAS HIM NOT YOU SWEET WOMAN!
LET 'ER RIP!!! YOU RAGE AND YOU BE PISSED, THATS PART OF THE RECOVERY FROM THESE SCUM OF THE EARTH!
To be used, abused, treated like absolute shit, controlled, manipulated...TREATED WITH HATRED, and brainwashed! Fucking nice, huh???
Your feeling the FALL OUT form MR. DEPRAVED, IT WILL PASS!
HUGS, FREEDOM AND PEACE WILL BE YOURS, WORK IT WITH NC!
It's like hating air, there is nothing / no one there to hate.
But rage, damn right, I will never ever let anyone treat me like that ever again! Woe to he who tries!
Amen to that Lily!!!
I hear you loud and clear!!!
I am SICK and TIRED of thinking about him every f**king day of my life!!!
He is worth the dirt under my shoes!!!!!!!!!!
I know I need to focus on me, but those thoughts are uncontrollable. They pop in my head and I have to make a conscience effort to stop the voices in my head!!
This bastard has no problem waking up every morning and going to the hospital to operate on someone's heart. Me......I can barely get through the day because he destroyed my healthy heart!! Then he goes home to OW who kisses his ass and his life is all cushy!!!
Am I angry????? That would be putting it mildly!!!!
He makes me SICK!! I want him to be MISERABLE and ALONE That's what he deserves!!
He uses his power as a prominent heart surgeon to get nurse after nurse. He will retire in the next few years and it won't work that way for him anymore. That's why I know he will be good to his 35 year old chica. He knows his days are numbered. It will kill me if he makes a change for her because of that!!!
FOCUS ON ME, FOCUS ON ME, FOCUS ON ME.........NC Rocks....and so do I
Know one of those types only too well in Montana... Must be that specialty. They have no heart so they have to work on others.
At least you feel those...I am still stuck in questioning everything and wondering what I did to deserve it. I want to hate him want to feel anger or anything besides sadness and worthlessness.
I cycle between the Hate and Rage and the total despair and questioning/wondering etc. I believe these are all normal feelings from what I have read....
Let's push through these things together also.
Love and hugs
Sounds like a great plan to me :)
You and me bothLet's push forward together.
Love and hugs
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