I've been so good. Haven't cried for a few weeks ... Felt lonely but just stayed busy and been ok.
Then tonight I find out exN has planned a overseas holiday with the OW. The ow that I always thought something was going on with! I couldn't even get him to go for a drive to another suburb with me!
So back comes the horrible gut wrenching anxiety and the tears and pain where i feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. I feel like crap.
I know he's a N but I still can't get my head around how someone can be so unbelievably uncaring!
Makes me feel so worthless that he's now doing all the things with someone else that I fought for over a year to do with him. What's so good about her?
And what is so wrong with me?
I hate this heart ache... It's like he'll.