It has been 20 days NC and 5 weeks since we looked in eachothers eyes and said goodbye for the last time. I feel good taht I have maintained the NC, because he has texted a few times about meaningless things. I wish however, that he would say sorry, he loves me, he misses me, etc. I really feel I need to know that for some reason. We were extremely close, and I think part of why he left was because he was losing his feeling of identity. i wanna tell him I am happy he is happy, that he is figuring out what HE wants in life and trying to step up with his OWN responsibilities...I want to be supportive, like I always am...but I am extremely angered that he walked away from OUR responsibilities and his he had with THIS life.
I want him to miss me, I want him to hurt...I feel like I am the only one who cares and is makes me feel like a Fool everytime my heart aches.Why does he not care? will I ever hear these things from him...I feel powerless. I stopped NC after sending him a last email, short and sweet telling him I will move on knowing I at least had a good 2 years and good luck in all his pursuits. When do they contact you seeking your sympathy????? I really want to shut the door in his face and say stay out of my life!!!! I want to be the final word...for once!!! I feel I NEED to in order to MOVE on!!!