starve the narc of supply. supply your own being with that energy..

starve the narc of supply. supply your own being with that energy..
Posted April 27, 2012 - 6:27pm
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why do we engage in behaviours and thought patterns over and over?
WE re-create the same scenarios with the same types of people.
Its like refusing to wake up from a dangerous dream that is slowly killing you.
I believe in a re-birth of consciouness and i think those who have not eveloved there thinking to free themselves of patterns and useless ideolgies.
those who remain trapped in coded conditioning will continue to fail and have to keep havign the lesson play out.. so as soon as you take back your power and create a new outcome, new scenarios, the painful play will cease to exist.
starve the narc of supply, look after yourself, love your own life and get out of the patterns.. its tricky..
i keep attracting the same relationships into my life.. stupid. and cant seem to adopt a different way as of yet?? but i do see it and i can feel the outcome of my patterns in a new way. i never had the eyes to see it before, it was just blind re-creation but now that i see it.. that means now I have a choice right!!!?
I long for change.. for re-birth and happiness.
Good luck everyone here on your unique journey.
I think 2012 is a real time of great unrest and disorder, so many bad experinces and so many people are living in the dark soul of the night.
I do see the end of the darkness is coming. the light is coming back.
if only we do take our power back and really embrace a new and better way of living..

Good luck one and all.

http://www.1channel.ch/watch-12640-2012-Science-or-Superstition

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Redhead1's picture

I totally agree with you

April 27, 2012 - 9:47pm — Redhead1

Right after I got out of the relationship with the narc and identified his behavior, I still reconnected with a narc parent (who is oblivious to the fact that they are all about them). So, I really I had learn nothing.

Fast forward to 2 years later and days and days of personal work and developement. I have spent so much time with myself that people thought I had dropped of the face of the earth. I now see my part in the whole narc mess. I think once you get to this point thought, life gets so much better. I went through that dark night of the soul and it was unbelieveably painful but very enlightening.

I feel like a different person. I am now grounded in the reality of life.I realized I knew the truth all along, but just couldnt accept that people were so blinded and cruel. I have learn to trust myself, major healing step there. I did feel crazy at times with the narc. I use to feel so sorry for these foolish people who see nothing outside of themselves, but now I send them love and move on my way.

I didnt want my narc to turn me into him through the experience and he didnt. I am not bitter towards him, wish him healing for his disorder-but I have got to move on my path to a life with love.

I really think narcs will always be attracted to us, but we have the choice to send them packing. The red flags are usually there soon enough to keep us from getting to attached, if we go slow like we are suppose to.

I love your post. The enlightenment is awesome. Its like you keep studying and studying and one day it just all clicks.
Thanks for sharing:)

esther11's picture

great outlook

April 28, 2012 - 1:32am — esther11

Thanks Redhead1
Your reply gave me some hope.
I am coming to the acceptance stage of my recovery and I liked how you mentioned "I now see my part in the whole narc mess".
I'm working on the bitterness and some days I feel like I'm at peace with it and can feel forgiveness and pray for peace for him but other days, out of nowhere, I get waves of resentment and pain. I suspect that this heals over time and by working on myself. I sure hope so.
Great post

"And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation — some fact of my life — unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment.
Unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes." - bb

Redhead1's picture

You know you are on the right

April 28, 2012 - 10:07am — Redhead1

You know you are on the right path. Keep going and time is your friend. You will get there, because it is what YOU want. Love to you and your healing. It is possible.
I love the quote you posted, just keep reading it:)