I started it. This morning I called him (God knows why) and HE brought up the topic of "why don't you come over tonight?" He suggested going out to dinner and watching movies at his house.
All day I've felt like I want to pull my hair and scratch my eyeballs out of my face because I have so much anxiety even THINKING about going over there.
I know I shouldn't. I know I really don't want to. SO WHY AM I FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS AND EVEN CONSIDERING IT?!
What do I do? How do I explain to him why? Help!