After reading numerous posts last night from veterans pleading with us newbies to stop obsessing about the OW, I decided to listen to their adivice and make it about ME today. So I get up, call the salon and make an appointment for a pedicure (which I love)!
Well..............when I get to the salon and open the door i glance over and see one of my XN's former OW getting a manicure. Then halfway through my pedicure another one of his former OW walks in for a pedicure and sits 2 seats away from me. I am thinking to myself are you fucking kidding me??? I have been coming here for 5 years and I never seen them once...didn't even know they came there!! I could feel they anxiety coming on and just wanted to bolt out of there...wet feet and all!!! Seriously, what would be the chances of 2 of my XN's OW being there the day I decide to stop obsessing about it??
I was really so pumped to start my day with a new outlook. It was finally sinking in after last nights posts that I need to put the focus on ME not OW. What a setback! I took one baby step forward and 10 GIANT steps back!!!
Trying to be strong and get those toxic thoughts out of my head!!