It has been almost 4 months NC and dont why but i checked his facebook - which in the 7 yrs together he very rarely used. In the last week he has never been off it. I am not his friend on facebook but his profile is open, although his photos have recently been put private. There he is living the high life after recently becoming a millionaire and has his profile picture of him and OW whom he was seeing before we spilt.
He is desperate to get married and have kids and will soon be engaged to her. They are moving into their first house together on Friday ( on his fb)!!
I dont even know what i am asking, just needed to get the feeling on envy I have towards him moving onwards and upwards and here I am feeling static!
He hoovered 2 weeks ago telling me he was drowning with no communication from me and how he was really missing me and then an hoover through a friend on Thursday telling her he wanted to speak to me to make sure i was ok, that we had spent 7 yrs together and that he really cared for me - I know this is all bullshit and am in CD at the moment.
I know the mask will stay on until they are married or she is preganant. Just so pissed off tonight and know I have done this to myself but looking!!!