Today is day 25 of NC and I am feeling weak. I'm in a place where we used to have good times and I'm finding it hard to accept that he doesn't, and never did, love me. I'm dazed. I haven't broken NC although I have thought about it, and what I would want to say. My sisters, I need to draw from your strength TW, yell at me for even thinking about it. Today has been the worst day so far.